Friday, 29 December 2006
Of all the songs to put, I chose this. Maybe it's nostalgic in a sense, significant to me.
Why? The first time I ever heard this song was almost exactly one year ago. Guan You played it for worship, and well, it impacted me deeply cause it was one of the worst moments in Church and Cell. I told myself I would change, no longer backslide, and yea, I know I was wrong.
Cause I've realised, almost nothing about me has changed. I'm still almost the same spiritually. I haven't really grown at all. This whole year was just me backsliding repeatedly, and though I have changed in some ways, the truth is I'm still pretty much the same kind of person I was one year ago.
In one year I've learned how to play that song on the guitar, I've learned that people changed, I've been back stabbed by friends, I've confronted people, and still, it's all superficial, I still don't know whether I did the right thing. I'm still the same, no matter how much I've learned, how much I've changed, I still backslide, I still screw up.
Went to Geylang for supper after cell today, however unusual it was, it was ironically one of the places I grew up in. Saw my old Nursery at Geylang Methodist, although it's now a carpark. =D And ironically, the last time I went there for supper was also one year ago, just after I went to FOP Hillsong and Delirious at the indoor stadium. I remember feeling exhilarated then, and walking all the way from the indoor stadium to the mrt just to miss the last train, then my father coming to fetch me and the two of us going for supper.
I guess this year was probably the worst year of my life so far. I would give anything to go back and change everything. I would at least try to stop backsliding, I would correct mistakes I made, I would definitely not be one week late.
It's just so hard to live with that fact.
I don't want to be the one having to correct myself, I don't want to be the one always doing the right thing. I never asked for any of this, yet I'm hated by the very person I thought was my friend cause I was doing the right thing? And yet I'm the evil person for not forgiving. How can I bring myself to forgive someone and "do the right thing" when he hated me for doing the right thing in the first place?
Maybe I was wrong all along. Maybe I have always been deluding myself. Maybe I'm wrong, and lying/saying vulgarities/backstabbing is the right thing to do. In the process of trying to do the right thing, I realise I might have done the exact opposite.
I wish I could be told what to do, I wish someone would just tell me what I'm supposed to do step by step so I can just follow and not have to think about anything. I want to just numb everything and not care about anything anymore. I can just worry about myself from now on.
I want to stop backsliding, I want to start all over again, just like last year, except now I've gone through fights, quarrels, I know I might have been too harsh, I'm sorry. I still don't know why, but I'm learning to live with it.
Here I Am Send Me.
Wednesday, 27 December 2006
Tried checking through hosts file, reg keys, proxy settings, firewall settings, even tried using ubuntu linux. Yet nothing worked.
Then everything magically started working today without me doing anything. -.-
Anyways, last Friday was sec1 registration. Went to do marshalling duty, standing there watching cars drive past. Erh, Marcus from Church going my school too? Haha, can't believe he's sec1 already...like super fast la...
Stood there for around 2hrs+? Then the rest of the time was spent in the classroom talking. Haha, BATMAN.
Went for lunch at kopitiam opposite, then went back for games day.
Games day was quite ok la...most of the time was spent discussing the campcraft competition that was cancelled due to the rain. Blee, water fight was the best, although Eugene Tan wasn't wet at all la...
My shoes were soaked with water by the end... =(
Dismissed at around 6? Asked my sis to help me get my sandals and meet me at mrt, cause my legs were super cold. Went to Sengkang to collect Spectacles after that. Haha, wasn't used to the new specs, so I walked around dizzily and got a horrible headache.
Took 156 down to j8, ate mac for dinner. Bleeee, saw Debrah, Rui Jiun, Lydia, Fionella and a bunch of unrecognizable girls walking in front of me. =/
The Drama was nice. Haha, Fabian and Jeremy's part was the funniest. Something like:"You should try to feel better" "Yar, you should try to feel better".
Haha, but the drama itself was nice, ended at around 10?
Reached home, started to wash my shoes cause they were soaked and muddy. Blee, slept at around 1am.
Woke up at 6, thankfully my father sent me to school. =D If not I'd have to rush.
Unit hike was quite ok. Didn't seem as tiring as last year's. Maybe cause I'm accustomed to walking home from school. =P
Left from Changi Jetty, walked to the bus terminal. Wanted to get to Airport but there wasn't any buses. Bleah, took 109 to Serangoon instead. Called parent's to find out their kettling duty was over. So no chance to meet the star wars characters. =/
Went home from Serangoon thinking I'd be home much faster if I followed everyone back to school. =\
Went home and slept almost immediately after bathing. Woke up at 9pm, ate dinner, and went back to sleep almost immediately after that.
Woke up on Christmas Eve with horrible muscle cramps and sores. HORRIBLE. I couldn't move around for 15mins. Forced myself out of bed cause it's Christmas Eve. Dragged myself to Church. But there was no sermon at all, just bible readings and songs. =) So I didn't have to force myself to stay awake or anything.
Went to Orchard at night, haha, super crowded. Walked around Orchard before gng home at around 11? Forced myself to stay awake again, =) Opened presents, went to sleep at around 1.
Gosh, woke up early on Christmas Morning again, went to Church for Christmas service. This time got sermon, but I was wide awake. =D
Blee, I think the rest of my day was spent aimlessly wandering around. So no point blogging. =)
Switched to Ubuntu Linux yesterday. So now I'm a Linux Noob. Blee, it was quite easy to install really, compared to the last time I tried to install Simply Mepis, all you need is a fast computer to download that 698.4 megabytes of data from the NUS mirror, an image drive burner like Nero, a few spare blank discs, and configuring your bios abit.
End result is something like a Mac, with no need for firewalls, anti-viruses, or anti-spyware/adware programs cause they are just killed with the default firewall. =D Still need lots of work before I can install to hard drive though...like I need 10gigs of space minimum...sighs. Horrible.
Thursday, 21 December 2006
Hah, me and Wen jie started this weird thing about synonyms. Wenjie=Synonymous with Shiny. Minghui=Synonymous with hot and/or sexy. =P Then we went around saying:"Look at that Wenjie floor!!" "Wow, that girl is so Minghui!" Blee
Went Carl's Junior for lunch. Blee, like, didn't we go carl's junior the last time? Bleah. Me, Leon and Wen jie were joking about Boon Kiat cause he bought the largest burger.
Gah, saw Fionella at Gv Vivo, =S
Watched Eragon, Gosh, it's like based off lord of the rings la, and only one guy died, and the fighting was super biased cause the dragon just one breath can kill the army, and the fire from the dragon is gaseous and not chemical so the soldiers wouldn't be burning unless their armour was flammable.
Haha, I'm a horrible movie critic.
Left Leon to ton with the girls. =D
Yesterday: Went Kettling at Compass. I think I've done around 7 hours of kettling already. Blee. Saw Camilla there, but she didn't see me. =P. Went to buy a new pair of spectacles. There was this offer on like, $120 for 2 pairs? So I brought a half frame and a full framed one. =) Was tempted to buy the orange one, or the pink one. Hee, and my shortsightedness improved but my austisy-thingy deproved.
Today: At temasek poly trying to make waves. The ocean kind.
Tomorrow: Sec 1 Registration, Marshalling duty, Npcc Games Day, Youth Drama.
Saturday: Unit Hike at Pulau Ubin, Kettling at Raffles City.
Sunday: Christmas Eve. Bleah.
Sunday, 17 December 2006
Maybe it's a good thing. Cause I can't imagine dragging myself to pack my bag again and waking up early tomorrow.
Anyways, Chalet was FUN. 4 days 3 nights was just fun fun fun fun and fun.
1st day started with me going to pasir ris to find out my family weren't there yet. So I went home. Blee. Went to the chalet at around 9pm. So there wasn't much to do except sleep. =D
Chalet was at Aloha Loyang. Erh, quite close to downtown east, 4 seperate rooms with queen sized beds and toilets. Kitchen, dining room, living room. Tried to go to sleep on the floor, but I wasn't that used to it yet so I couldn't really sleep. I don't remember the poncho's and classroom from Nco camp to be as uncomfortable la...
Tried to go to sleep for about 3hours, slept for about 2hours, "woke up" at 6 in the morning. =D Watched my uncle sort out his assortment of fishing hooks next to the bbq pit and watched the sun rise. Went swimming with cousins at around 9, went back for lunch, and because bbq was starting at 5 we lazed around playing card games.
Haha, we started a barbecue without a single fire starter...heated charcoals on the kitchen stove till they were burning hot, then brought them to the bbq pit and fanned like crazy.
Stayed up till around 12.30 eating, playing with card games, attempting to melt marshmallows, all sorts of horribly weird stuff.
Woke up at 9....went swimming again...Heh, went escape at around 11.
Gosh, the haunted house is not even scary la!!! Not fun at all. I walked though and almost fell asleep queuing up lor...but I have to say, I wouldn't mind working there, all that girl had to do was dress up and laugh horribly.
Spent 1hr+ queuing up for the go karts. Weee go karts are super fun. Like, the closest you can get to driving short of buying a car. Maybe one day I shall go buy a go kart and race around the car park.
Haha, walked back to chalet for lunch after that, lazed around until 5....went out to escape again.
Hahas, we were at the revolution thing...
Escape Staff:"Are you Ready?!?"
Escape Staff:"Huh? You want to get off anot?"
HAHAHAHA. That's why you should never go to the theme park with me. =D
Went to the Viking after that, me and wen jie competed to see who could stare at each other without moving or blinking on the ship. =P He started laughing before the ship even moved lur...
Queued again for go karts, Heh. Waited for another 45mins just to enjoy 10mins of fun. Went on the last ride of the revolution, walked back to chalet, ate dinner.
Haha, we were bored so we decided to play with fire, then my sis was roasting a marshmallow when it caught fire. XD the end result was an oreo-like substance comprising of half-burnt marshmallows and charcoal bits and leaves and small branches.
Slept at around 3am, woke up at 9, packed bag, went home...
Blee, post pics next time...
Wednesday, 13 December 2006
Saturday, 9 December 2006
Meh, I'll probably change it when I'm done with the blogskin. Too lazy to do it right now. =P
Woke up at 8 yesterday. Zzzz. Dragged myself to Hougang to wait for Bibi and Alvin. Alvin arrived 10mins late and Bibi arrived 30mins late. =/
Took the bus down to temasek poly and arrived late again. =\ Saw Chee Hock at Tampines interchange, he passed us like...100+ calenders? Haha, modelled and composed everything at tp, played around with those flyers Chee Hock gave us, left at 4.30.
Wanted to go lan with Alvin and Hui Joo la...but they got to be home by 6. =/ Took a super long train ride down to City Hall to change to North South line and went towards Bishan.
Erh, super bored lor...sis was meeting me in 1/2 hour, Bryan wanted to go Church straight... So I went Library. Haha, borrowed this supposedly slim 279 page book on world war 2. Then I realised the words were super small. And lots of descriptive stuff thrown in every paragraph. Combine with impossibly chim words that I can't understand. But the book was nice anyways.
Ate dinner with sis, walked to Church, arrived 1/2 hour early=Time to read the book. =D
But then Jolene sat behind me and looked over my shoulder asking me to explain this word and that. The book had words like 'ideograms' and 'cowling'? Heh, Matthew also couldn't tell what ideograms was.
Guan You took out the guitar for cell. Weee I finally know how to play Still by Hillsong. Haha, watched Guan You trying to play the guitar and sing at the same time with Ben muting all the strings. Gah, I suddenly remembered during cell that I agreed to go Tp next Thursday, then I realised the chalet starts next Thursday. AAAAA I'll have to miss an entire day of fun!!! Nooooooo, at least the chalet's at Pasir Ris so I won't have to walk that far.
Haha, I finally decided I should go for the Youth Camp. Meaning 14th to 17th will be chalet with family, 18th-21st will be youth camp, 22nd will be Npcc and Drama, and 23rd will be Unit Hike at Pulau Ubin.
Wednesday, 6 December 2006
So we all reached there late lur. But the band was there so ok...Haha, turns out Guan You and Rachel went to eat at burger king raffles city? O.o
Was quite fun, really. Cause got the band playing behind you and all the little kids walking up to you acting cute. Hee, the worst part is having to wear the red uniform thing that says:"I'm a bellringer." EEE, I only wore it once last year. Haha.
Then this man walking past asked if anyone knew Tan Bee Yit. O.o What are the coincidences of your father's uncle from Thailand being in Singapore on a one week holiday and walking past the kettling stand just as you were the one ringing the bell. But I couldn't recognize him la...cause most of my relatives live overseas in USA, Switzerland, all that kind of stuff. Blee, he passed me his name card for my father.
Then Guan You me and Rachel went to walk around Raffles City doing crazy stuff. Haha, Guan You told me to go say hello to the next person walking pass us. I took out a phone and pretended I was calling someone. Lol, then we started trying to get people to turn and look at us and realise we were talking on the phone. Walked around Raffles City, saw rjc's prom from the outside, waved at random people, stared at the ceiling to make people look...
Blee, and Guan You fell in love with a model 3 times bigger than him working for a credit card company with dandruff.
Monday, 4 December 2006
Woke up at 10 for Church yesterday. Rev George Ong was preaching today. I remember reading about him in the Sunday times a few weeks back. =D His sermons are full of jokes. =D
Guitar practice was fun. Last time Adriel teaching us though. So he taught us this latin song that's grade 6 guitar? Blee, quite easy to play for a grade 6 piece I think...haha the song is super familiar but I still haven't learned the chorus and harmonics. Learned how to play a few other songs too. Hahas, spent like 2hours+ practicing...which explains 2 blisters on my fingers? Cause the string tension was super high and hard to press.
Blee. Woke up this morning at 6.15. I distinctively remember setting my alarm clock and turning off the light, yet when I woke up my alarm was off and the light was on? Scary...couldn't have been my parents cause they were fast asleep. Haha, maybe it's my imagination and all...thankfully I woke up at 6.15...
Bleah, tests today. Quite...ok....but drill training was super tiring...everyone was super nua halfway through, and it explains the 3 blisters on my feet. Sighs. Went for lunch with Hao Xiang at kfc.
Went home, bathed, rested for 2hours? Then my parents suggested going to watch happy feet. Wee happy feet. So we went down to Plaza Sing to watch it. Hah, blisters weren't all that painful in my shoes though.
Happy feet was nice. Better than Deck The Halls or Casino Royale in my opinion. I wanna be a penguin and tap around. =D
Reached home at around 10.30...
Gosh, I feel so lethargic now....zzzzzzzz....
Saturday, 2 December 2006
Went first to Kovan for lunch with Wen jie, Wee jin and Sharlene? O.o Why in the world did Wen jie ask Sharlene arh? ;)
Ate at mac's, we had like, 3 packets of leftover fries. Which we put into a paper bag and messed around doing stupid stuff like throwing fries at each other and wasting food. =/
Met up with the rest at 1.30. Not that many people came considering it was a "class gathering"? Maybe it's cause we lost contact with some people and others are too lazy. We practically loitered around waiting for Jia ling to come. Saw Lenson and his brother walking.
Took a train down to Vivo City. Meh, super crowded lur. I was hearing music when suddenly Jocelyn asked if someone was calling me. O.o Saw Meryl and Kristle one level below. Haha. Watched Deck the halls. Tickets were $8 cause I brought along my safra card. =D I helped everyone save $1 ok?
Deck the halls was quite ok...plot was kind of obvious. But it's unrealistic lar, it's impossible to light up Christmas lights to the extent that they could be seen from space unless you use satellite imagery like Google Earth. I think the funniest part was when Wee Jin and Leon laughed sarcastically when everyone was laughing.
I wish I could go back to Rosyth and relive everything again. Watch Kenneth Ang spray Miss Grace Lee with a nike bottle and get caned. Go for Pa duty every day. Use lift C to sneak into the canteen early in the morning. Forming the "line of defense" when playing soccer. Sighs.
Maybe I should start finding ways to earn cash online and get me a great excuse to use the computer for long hours. But I'd be too distracted. =/
Brought a new peg-winder from that music shop at Sengkang today. Blee. It cost me $3 and I have no idea why I brought it cause I probably won't need to replace my strings until a few months from now and I don't have any spare acoustic guitar strings to use if I accidentally snap one. =
Cell was great. Haha, saw Fionella there? AAAAAAAAAA she started saying something like:"I know you miss Ondrea/Serene". AAAA thankfully no one from Church heard or I'd have to live with the teasing for a few months.
Message was on how some Christians use God as a trump card. Gosh, I think the punishment for using God as a trump card as described in the Bible is horribly harsh, but still reasonable. =)
And we were watching Rachel Kwan fight with her sister during small group. Hahaha, the legible parts we heard were like:"Nooo you will add the chili!". And Guan you was describing his red prom dress with a weird dark green red purple coat thing that changes colour upon closer inspection.
I'm going to be uber broke tomorrow cause of the 606 outing. Movie tickets cost $9.50? We should go do some cost free thing like window shopping or something. But then again, I might be so tempted to buy something when window shopping and end up spending more than $9.50.
Thursday, 30 November 2006
Woke up at 7am for the C4d Mts drama thing.
Gasp..why am I waking up soooo early nowadays????
Took a train to Hougang, met Alvin and Hui Joo. Took 147. O.0 Bibiana lives near Kenny? Sighs, went down to Boon Keng, up to Tampines.
BLEH. Reached there 1&1/2 hour late...the whole studio was filled with teachers doing the exact same snowman animation we did. =D Should have given them our completed projects. Haha, there wasn't any sounds of gunfire or miniclip.com in the studio.
I feel so short in Temasek Polytechnic. All the polytechnic guys walking around the canteen(s) were super tall. =( I'll never opt for Temasek Poly unless I grow up 10cm or something.
Spent the whole day making this really hawt Hurricane lamp. Unfortunately I cant show any images of it cause it would violate some disclosure agreement thingy. Maybe I could make a new one and post it here.
Wednesday, 29 November 2006
Meh, forgot to bring my portable hard drive there. Cause his present was inside my hard drive. Haha, I'm using my birthday present to give other people their birthday presents. =D
Back to trying to complete miscellaneous stuff.
Braces. And Tounge. XD
Sunday, 26 November 2006
I'd probably bore everyone to death if I blog about every single aspect of the NRC. Bleh. I shall practice my summary skills.
First day: Lecture. Rifle Drills. Lunch. Lamp Lighting. Knots. Debrief. Dismissal.
Second day: Lecture. Drills. Lunch. Flagstaff. Debrief. Dismissal.
Third day: Lecture. Lunch. Lashings. Drill Competition. Debrief. Dismissal.
Okies, I know I'm just being lazy to blog about everything. =P
Blee. Walked home after the third day. Ya, I felt super energetic. =) Walked past 9 bus stops, crossed 9 or 10 traffic lights, 2 bridges, 3 basketball courts, 2 soccer fields and 1 soccer cage. Maybe I should try counting the street lights next time. =)
Saw lots of people jogging. Then I wondered, why jog? Why run? Why waste your energy, time, effort to do something which will waste away in the future anyways?
Bleah. Unit hike changed to 23rd? That means I can make it for the drama camp. -.- What an amazing coincidence. -.- Dunno if I should go or not. You're not exactly supposed to go for a 3day 2night camp at St John's Island and drama musical before a full day hike.
At least Nrc is over. Now it's MTS, Total defence/neighbourhood watch test, and chalet?
GAH, you know my name. Dada dada dada da daaaa. =\
Thursday, 23 November 2006
Went to school at 11 to get the fake ic. Went home, changed, went out again. =S Went to plaza sing for lunch and a haircut. The lady cutting my hair was super fast. Like...less than 8mins.
Took a bus down to Bras Basah to buy a guitar. =) The shop where Guan you brought his guitar was super ex lur. Couldn't find an acoustic under 100. All the guitars were like...$500+. =S The fender electrics were locked inside a glass room. O.o Who will pay $8000 for an electric guitar!?!? I don't think I'd bear to play it lur.
Went to the other shop, found this nice looking guitar, brought it, went home, played around, went out again. =/
Went to buy school uniform at my sister's workplace. Erh, no more old pants. =(
Nrc tomorrow. Therefore I won't be blogging or even using the computer except for email. I have no idea how I'm going to survive with a horrible sprain in my right leg, and I most likely won't be able to go for cell group, church, guitar practice, and the spiritual gifts seminar. Sighs.
Wednesday, 22 November 2006
Went to school for the MTS thing yesterday. We completed the beach scene quite fast...just need to model and animate some coconut trees or something...
Went to cage to play soccer after that. Played for a while, then went to Kovan to eat lunch. Ate at pizza hut, haha, me Jian hui and Chee hock ate exactly the same thing. Discussed where to go cause bowling alley was full.
Decided to go Orchard and took 136 down to Ang Mo Kio. Blarh walked around there doing pretty much nothing until Meryl called and we decided to go her house and watch some horror flick. Took a train down to kallang.
Blee, watched the Dorm at Meryl's house. It wasn't really a horror film. Very 'touching' according to Jian Hui. =P Celebrated Chee Hock's birthday with a cake brought by Meryl and Kristle.
Went home at around 9.30...reached home at 10.30. =
Woke up this morning with a horrible sprain on my right leg. =/
Went for npcc today, lazed around for around 50minutes doing nothing except watching the other ccas. =
Blarh, finally collected camp things at around 12. Went for lunch with Nigel, Yi hong and Xiu yuan at kfc. Met Eugene there and got back my game and controllers from him. Went home after that. Crashed onto bed, slept for around 5hours.
Yawn...I'm still sleepy. And tired, and depressed, and worried, and stressed.
I guess it's all my fault.
Monday, 20 November 2006
Not that sad cause almost everyone from 2int is coming back for the drama animation(except randolph -.-).
Haha, was rushing throughout cause I thought it was possible to batch render. But after like...2hours? The rendered file was corrupted and could not open. So everything was just rushing about.
Finished everything quite late. Cause I completely forgot to render one scene and hence spent awhile rendering it. Was the second last group to present. Haha, went quite...well...although we didn't add in lots of stuff, like that lava lamp. Haha, SURE OWN ONE LARR. Video to be posted to class blog soon? Youtube doesnt seem to work for me. =(
Instructors briefed us a little on the drama thing we're supposed to animate.
Took mrt home cause it was raining. haha, I planned to walk home again lur...sighs. Heh, and my feet weren't wet at all. But now my new shoes are. =/
Animator Vs. Animation II
Man...I should learn to animate in flash like that. Or cinema4d? Heehee. The first one's nice too.
Go see bibiana's blog for that picture we co-designed for the evaluation project. I'm too lazy to upload it here.
Sunday, 19 November 2006
Woke up at 1pm. Gasp, I'm waking up later and later each day. Felt super tired, but dragged myself to go eat with family anyways. Ate at cartel, then brought shoes, then went home. Worked on project, slept at 1am.
Woke up at 10am by parents...couldn't hear alarm ringing. =S Went to Church, sermon was really meaningful. Went for a spiritual gifts seminar that I have no memory of signing up for. But the seminar was nice anyways, although I won't be able to make it next week. =/
Weee Evaluation. And we haven't exactly started animating yet. Bleah.
Saturday, 18 November 2006
Woke up exceptionally early today. Considering I slept at 1? Woke up at 7.30...went to prepare full u...went to school.
Cinema4d practice was ok...all that's left is animation and textures. And rendering and titles and credits and exporting. And we have around 2days left.
Went to find Eugene Tan for lunch at mac after that. He forgot to wear his belt.........hahaha, his mother passed it to him, and he went into his mother's car and that was the last time I ever saw him. AND HE NEVER PASS ME BACK MY GAME. RAWR.
It's not like I cant survive without an xbox anyways. =)
Completely blacked out during training. Scary...this time my hands and legs went numb? Maybe it's cause I slept around 6hours...or maybe cause I didn't really eat much. Felt super cold...dizzy...those kind of things.
Went to Church after that. Worship was really great. Although much longer than usual. But the drum solo was nice. =) Message started with the tabernacle but changed to how Christians should be like. Although I couldn't really focus cause I was super tired. =S
Signed up for publicity in the drama camp. Didn't want to sign up initially, cause I was really afraid I might not be able to make it. The drama clashes with unit hike? But publicity doesn't require you to be present during the drama. =)
Celebrated Guan you's birthday. OOO The cake is nice. Cheesy. Brought a camera, but didn't take any pictures. =P.
Brought a packet of chips on the way back cause my sis had a sudden craving for chips. And since I always have a craving for chips...Heh.
It's already 1.46am. But since I'm too lazy to go edit everything from today to yesterday. =P.
Thursday, 16 November 2006
What do you do when you have a whole day ahead of you free with nothing to do?
You work. Sighs.
Still left with the interior, textures, and animation.
Haha, took a few breaks though. Messed around a bit with the blogger template. Haha, planning to do lots more, maybe in the future? I feel super drained already.
Tuesday, 14 November 2006
I'm talking about my headphones of course.
Haha, it lasted only 59days? Compared to my previous set which lasted at least 6months...maybe it's cause I used it for like 1hour+ a day. Compared to 30mins a day last time. Or maybe it's cause someone turned up the volume too loud until the bass boost thing exploded. -.-
Ah wells, was expecting it since it was giving me lots of weird feedback these few days. Maybe it's significance is metaphoric/symbolic?
What do you do when your headphones spoil? You go buy a new one of course. =) Spent my $20 voucher on a new set of sony headphones with sis, although its a much cheaper version.
Course today was on animating the last 2 scenes and learning Windows Movie Maker. They didn't really teach anything chim on Windows Movie Maker. So I didn't really learn anything today. Which is good. Cause I then had time to model the house, which Lenson keeps saying "is very nice" in a sarcastic tone. =(
I completely forgot about the open house article until I received the email from Fionella today.
Thankfully she emailed me, although she was one day late. =
Yea, finally I'll be free tmr to go out with frens. =)
Gah. I distinctively remember setting the alarm la. Maybe the tooth fairy came and shut off the alarm. o.O
Bleah, project test yesterday. This time it was much harder? I made a mistake at some point and had to retrace my steps. But I think I did ok. =)
I'm going to get murdered by bibi for not doing the house. =S
Rushing through everything early in the morning is never fun.
Sunday, 12 November 2006
Who needs the hug more? The giver or the receiver?
Yea! Lets go Vivo or Plaza Sing with a free hugs card and give out free hugs!!!
Woke up late for Church. =S
Went down for guitar practice at around 2, learned how to play One way-Hillsong. =) Although it's like almost similar to Everyday.
Gah, so many things still need to be done...
Saturday, 11 November 2006
Sore throat from where? Maybe I've been eating too much fast food.
Haha, ulcer was because I accidentally bit of a part of my mouth wall with my wisdom teeth. There was a lot of blood and small bits of...gum/flesh? Yar, it's changed to a particularly painful ulcer.
Yesterday was ok, went to meet Sis for dinner after c4d. Wanted to go eat subway...but it was too expensive...haha. Bryan came at around 6.45..went to find a present for his friend. Walked to church after that.
Haha, Biru was complaining during cell that she was feeling hot, then Guan you said:"Sorry".
Rachel Kwan and Guan you were arguing over who was prettier? Eeeee then Guan you took Rachel's new phone and started to mess around with the camera's functions. Haha, he tried some weird burst effect and ended up with 3 same pictures of him.
Jolene was reading this comic about a cat? Worse, it was in chinese!! Haha, then she opened her bag and it was full of library books. o.O
Talked with Chee hock this morning. Until arnd 2am when he needed to sleep. =
Woke up at 7, 7.15, 8,8.30 and 9 respectively. Cause I drifted back to sleep everytime. Heehee.
Haha, I didn't recognise Fionella at first, only because she was sitting with Ondrea. There was this...Serene? From 1int...she beat people dam pain lur...
The teachers kept thinking I was helping out with the stall la. Kenna arrowed cause I was the only boy there, therefore I had to go carry the hi spirits and ice.
Went upstairs to go
Time to start focusing on the project. Date due in...9days? Ya, and I'm not feeling stressed yet even when we haven't even started to model much. Ah wells.
Friday, 10 November 2006
-Girls that dress like boys with short hair. Esp those with hair shorter than me. !!!
-Comp crashing. heeheehee.
-Mee. Maggie mee. Cause that time during np we ate maggie mee for lunch and dinner 3days non-stop. *shudders*
-Extremely geeky people. Those that can use the computer for 12hours non-stop. (Which Alvin and Lenson both claim to be normal people.)
-Guitar strings snapping. Cause I'll be too poor/lazy to buy new strings and I won't have a guitar. =(
-Roshan. Haha, I noob mah. (All the non-dota players won't get it. =P)
7 favourite music at the moment
-Ends of the Earth-Hillsong
-From the inside out-Hillsong United
-The Stand-Hillsong United
-Meant to live-Switchfoot
-An Qing-Jay Chou
-Just the girl-The Click Five
7 people i fancy
(No seriously, I don't 'fancy' anyone. =P)
7 things i said most
7 things i like most
7 people needed to do this survey
I decided not to sabotage anyone. =P Good right?
Bleah, animating today. Animating your models=super laggy. And lag is not good. =( At least it's just a few more scenes to go. Until we have to animate our evaluation project. BLEAH.
Maybe I'll put the render later?
Bibi asked me to do some weird list thing. -.-
Haha, I'll do it later cause course is almost gonna end.
The above picture is purely satrical in content and not meant in any way to insult the prior owner nor entail any copyright infringements through intellectual property.
Choose which photo you like better. Click until the brain at the bottom left turns pink. Then click on the brain, and you have some interesting weird fact that the "brain" discovered about you.
Fun. But insightful too. Haha, got lots of weird quotes?
"You like to exercise."
O.0 Do I? Maybe that explains why I'm underweight. Heehee. =P
"If you had the chance to lead a cult you wouldn't."
Haha, thats obvious right? Right...
"You Avoid Junk Food."
No..I LOVE JUNK FOOD. =)
"You often listen to music."
Eeeks, that's true? Cause my headphones are with me 99% of the time.
"You never drink."
Er...as long as jolly shandy isn't considered a 'drink'. =)
Haha, I'm addicted to it now...
Thursday, 9 November 2006
Eeks, project proposals are uber hard to do lar. Can't think of any chim words to use to explain the scene
Didn't sleep well last night. Maybe the air con was too cold, or maybe it's cause I was sneezing repeatedly. Blarh, panadol doesn't seem to have any effect.
Streaming results are posted. Blarh, Physics was merged with Geog? I am so not looking forward to next year's classmates. But anyways, it's all part of the challenge. =)
Got this in an email today.
An American businessman was at the pier of a small coastal Mexican
village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked. Inside the
small boat were several large yellow fin tuna. The American
complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish and asked how long
it took to catch them. The mexican replied only a little while. The
American then asked why didn't he stay out longer and catch more fish?
The Mexican said he had enough to support his family's immediate needs.
The American then asked, but what do you do with the rest of your time?
The Mexican fisherman said, "I sleep late, fish a little, play with my
children, take siesta with my wife, Maria, stroll into the village each
evening where I sip wine and play guitar with my amigos, I have a full
and busy life, senor.
The American scoffed, "I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You
should spend more time fishing and with the proceeds buy a bigger boat,
with the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats,
eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling
your catch to a middleman you would sell directly to the processor,
eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product,
processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal
fishing village and move to Mexico City, then LA and eventually NYC
where you will run your expanding enterprise."
The Mexican fisherman asked, "But senor, how long will this all take?"
To which the American replied, "15-20 years."
"But what then, senor?"
The American laughed and said that's the best part. "When the time is
right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the
public ad become very rich, you would make millions."
"Millions, senor? Then what?"
The American said, "Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal
fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with
your kids, take siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the
evenings where you could sip wine and play your guitar with your
It speaks alot if you ponder over it for awhile.
What is the point of success if the only thing you have in the end is the thing u started with in the first place?
Wednesday, 8 November 2006
Yea I'm hawt!
I have no idea why I'm joking.
Maybe it helps to make me optimistic?
I have no idea why I'm blogging like this either.
And I have no idea how I'm going to drag myself from bed tomorrow.
Maybe I should take a break and stay at home sleeping.
But that would mean failing and wasting $120.
Went to pick up my sis, called alvin, then alvin called back to tell me to come at 4. =S
Reached there at around 3.50, but they were still at Chuan hui's Dad's farm? 0.o Walked around looking at weird stuff like the band playing. Met Nigel and Wynne outside the chalet? Went in to wait, walked out to meet keane, went in again, met Zy Jemaine Yi han Elisa, and the rest finally came at around 4.30? -.-
Blee, fire seemed easy to start at first, then after around 30mins the fire started to die. =S Used up 2 boxes of firestarters? Haha, the "continent" charcoal took even longer to burn.
XD played halo2 with Daniel, Chee hock and Eugene. =P
Drank about 8cans of jolly shandy? But i shared with a lot of people though...
Everyone started going home at around 10.20? In the end i was the only one left that didn't have parents to fetch me home, unless you count mr yeo. Heehees. Went home at around 11+? Last bus was 11.45 anyways...my shirt smells of charcoal/bbq/whatever.
Yea! Looking forward to another chalet with relatives at coasta sands again! Haha, this time I'm staying three days. But it's on the 14th 15th 16th december...sighs...meaning nrc, c4d, and a whole bunch of stuff have to pass before the chalet comes.
Monday, 6 November 2006
Hence I just stayed at home
Sister realised her ezlink card was broke. Bleah. So we went to eat at Potong Pasir instead. =/ Left Bryan all by himself. Rained on the way to church, and we were late by 15minutes when we got there.
Haha, but Adriel was even later, he came at around 3.30...
Guitar practice was...ok...first part was learning how to tune a guitar. Bleah. And Adriel turned all the strings until they were untuned. Bleah. Quite ok, used both of Adriel's acoustic electric guitars. Weird, their made of plastic? and they have wires and stuff inside that knock around when you move the guitar about.
Bleahs, homework for guitar practice is to practise the 3 songs. Bleah, or else Adriel will untune everything and we can have lots of fun tuning the guitar again. Lots of fun.
Went Chomp chomp to eat dinner. Yea! Stingraysataysugarcanehokkienmeeprawnsfriedricecarrotcake.
Maybe I'm no longer underweight?
Alarm set at 8 yesterday, but i woke up at 9.30. =S Did as much as I could on the class movie before going to meet the rest for class chalet. Bleah, reached there at around 12.05. But still no one there yet. I think I should start arriving late and make everyone wait for me instead of wait for everything. Yea.
The chalet was fun. Went to check in, but the check in time was 2.30. So me, Alvin, Si peng, Jian hui, and Eugene went to eat. XD. It was funny lar, cause when we were eating 25minutes started playing and me and Jian hui were laughing like mad. Bleah, eating with them=sure to laugh.
Went white sands to buy bbq stuff. o.0 Also brought 12cans of jolly shandy. lol. and 3bottles of sparkling grape/apple. Haha, I think the renaming of items is getting weirder. Now it's mulopong, convoose, and neke?
Went back and lazed around playing blackjack. Then went out again to city hall. Jian hui Si Peng and Alvin are flithy rich lur! 69+ on a single billabong shirt. Haha, best part was they spent a total of $200 and got a free t-shirt which they gave to me. Thanks guys. lol. Should see Jian hui's shirt, the front looks really formal but the back is like gangster complete with spiked hair.
Ate macs at Boon Keng for dinner. Bleah. We wasted 50cents just to eat dinner with Koh...
Sunday, 5 November 2006
Saturday, 4 November 2006
I have no idea where I learned how to write like that. It's just rambling undecipherable nonsense formed by the intellect of a stressed out teenager trying desperately to explain his situation through the use of words.
Ok, I really should stop.
Went for C4d practice yesterday. Didn't really accomplish much, just rendered a few objects to use in the project. But then again, I don't think the rest accomplished much either...
Erh, went early for npcc today..turns out they were cleaning the pegs, kind of contridicting in a sense, we're gonna be using the pegs in a few hours and here we are removing rust from it when it'll be rusty again in a few hours.
Felt super super tired during training, didn't really focus on what to do, maybe I should have slept earlier the night before instead of working...sleeping at 1 the past few days?
Went for cell, sis didn't go cause she was working. Meh, wanted to work too, but because of npcc...
Cell was ok, most of the leaders having a lvls, cell outing when a's end. Weee.
Made up my mind to go sign up for the many activites in Church being organised. Like the drama camp and musical on the 19-22nd december. That was when I realised Npcc unit hike is on the 22nd. =/
Woke up at 8am today, didn't go npcc cause the concert's today and I have to go make last minute changes. Maybe I'll ask my parents to write a letter? Blarh, I can't be bothered anyways. I shall just fail everything and become a private with no badges.
Finished work at around 12, ate lunch, and crashed onto bed. Slept for around 6hours. And still I felt tired and had to drag myself from bed. Went for a swim with family. Took me 3minutes to swim a lap? Gah...haven't been swimming in a long time..
Paycheck due tomorrow? Eh, going to buy a new guitar.. Finally. Barcoding seems so easy now, even though I found it super hard to barcode a few months back, now it's just normal. Learning distortion and variation now though...
Driving the point home: I'm past breaking point. Please don't bother me with your insanely high expectations or requirements anymore. And don't bother to tell me depressing news too, I'll just explode and you'll suffer my horrendous wrath of undefined anger.
Like how I was almost to the point of exploding at Alvin. You were supposed to pass me the pictures when? And the first thing you tell me when I'm online is that you'll pass me the pictures this Monday when you already agreed to sending me the pictures today which I expected in my email inbox. Honestly speaking, it took all my self control to keep from exploding.
I'm tired of trying to live to someone else's expectations. And I definitely need a break.
Friday, 3 November 2006
Went home, and realised I had a huge amount of work to do. Gah. Decided to skip everything and take a one hour nap.
Woke up for Npcc. Campcraft training was unenthusiastic cause everyone was also super tired. And many of the boys didn't come. Got scolded cause I pegged wrongly. Hao Xiang also. =/
Felt strangely energetic after npcc. So I walked home, this time going the longer route. Walked past the old hihs, the cage there, the basketball court where they used to practice. The field which we ran 2.4 around is gone, replaced by construction work. So is many empty areas I used to remember.
But still, didn't feel that tired until I reached home 1hr+ later. Realised I still had work which is due tomorrow. Gah, so here I was, trying to do everything without screwing up, and the last thing I need, is for someone to remind me of the incident again. Walking home helped me numb everything, but wow, with one word u brought everything back. Thanks alot man, I appreciate it sooo much, blocking me and being angry at me when I should be the one SCREAMING MY LUNGS OUT AT YOU helped ALOT TOO.
Now I'm grumpy all over again. Must...practice...self...control...
Thursday, 2 November 2006
Didn't bother to texture and color. I hate texturing and colouring. Blarh, for the project Bibiana's going to have to do all the texturing and coloring. Or else I'll make everything hotpink. =P
No time to really texture and finish it nicely though. Haha, at least I did get something from making this train. Learned about the symmetry object. Symmetry seems like a cheapskate shortcut way to replicate an object. All automated one. =/
Wednesday, 1 November 2006
Last Month I was worried about examinations? I rarely give a thought to whether I'll be streamed to the class I want now?
Went to play soccer and discuss about the chalet with a few others. Haha, weird, went to Food Court at hougang mall, then cage, then Food Court again.
Went to Ntuc after that to check the price of items for the bbq. Heehee, me and Jian hui went around speaking nonsense that coincidentally sounded like another language. Blehs. Then we went around giving weird accents to different items, the trick is to replace the vowel of a word with another vowel. Cicks!
Ran home in the rain today. Lightning and thunder in the sky, mp3 playing, flooded pavement, cars driving around. It wasn't really fun...just...fitting.
Was planning to go meet 409people in the afternoon. But the outing was cancelled. =( So much for catching up with pri4 classmates. =/
606 going to wild wild wet tomorrow? Blarhs, can't make it either cause of Npcc. =(
Gah, haven't discussed when to meet with clan yet. =\ Supposed to meet somewhere in November?
I want another cell group outing!! Maybe go to pasir ris again? I think west coast's nicer, but then, it's far away...
Finally, guitar practise this Saturday? Guitar practise was changed to saturday's but the auditorium was book the past few weeks. This time we're practising with a band? I can't seem to keep timing with the drums lar...
Hmm, wonder where I'll be 1 month from now?
Tuesday, 31 October 2006
Most ... thing that happened today: Npcc ended around the same time as Cinema 4d. Why didn't they end late like yesterday so I could go? Didn't go yesterday cause I had to go borrow Lenson's c4d.
Weirdest thing that happened today:Haha, playing around with Benzier splines...BEAT THAT ALVIN!! =D
What I learned today: The colder the temperature in the room, the slower I type.
Ok I learned Benzier splines, extrude inner, and how to model a whole bunch of stuff.Haha, most of the stuff in one render. See? I didn't slack around all day ok?
Decided to go geography? Although I have a good chance of getting into double, I'd rather study something less stressful. =) And like Sandy said, I shouldn't let others influence my decision. ;)
HEEHEEHEE. It's scary...
Monday, 30 October 2006
The smiley's eyebrows move up and down repeatedly. Heehee.
Daddy Dj. Which Keane sent me.
Tried out Dota which Lenson sent to me? BUT I'M NOT ADDICTED TO DOTA. =P I don't think it's that addictive...
Prison break. Started watching it a few weeks back? It's interesting but kinda boring with they way they try to create suspense after awhile. Lost 3 should be much better. =)
Coffee? Can't really tell, but I did drink 2 cans to keep me awake today...
I think more than half of the stuff I'm addicted to was sent to me by someone? Hmmmmm.
The course is interesting? Much less people than most other courses I attended. Learned quite a lot on extruding and HyperNurbs and all that other chim stuff.
The best part is that they pass you notes so if u can work fast
Was trying to fix the problem with the class movie throughout the day. And it still doesn't work. I distinctively remember seeing the video appear on youtube lar...but now it's gone...haiz...
Haha, anyways, learned how to render quite a lot of objects.
Like a bench. =)
Or flower. =P
Should go see Lenson's one though. He added all custom textures and lightings lar.
Haha, actually we wanted to go catch Sinking of Japan. But decided not to cause of the huge crowds and because my younger sister might be scared.
Then we wanted to go eat at Swensens, but decided not to because of the long queqe. Haiz...ate at breeks instead. Haven't eaten at Breeks in a long time? Last time I remember it was with this Australian family from somewhere? Was quite nice though.
Walked around Vivo City...then we decided to go Sentosa. =) Haven't been to Sentosa in a long time. We walked to the bridge cause we thought could cross over by walking. But the walkway was closed for renovation? Blarhs, walked all the way back to the bus interchange and took a bus there.
Sentosa looks really different from last time now. The monorail's gone, new lrt, new carparks, almost everything is changed except the Visitor Arrival Centre? Went to Palawan beach to walk around, there's this new wading pool thing that's really more for kids. But we went to play anyways.
Camera dropped into the pool. =/ Doesn't work anymore...maybe I should try using a hairdryer? Yar, took lots of photos, but until I get a card reader...
Got super wet because both of my sister's were teaming against me. Blarh then as we were walking to the musical fountain my sis splashed water all over me cause she "thought" i was going to splash her. HMPH i think i swallowed some of that water lar...
Started raining as we went to the musical fountain. The show itself was quite ok. I didn't know they had pyrotechnics, now all they need is fireworks. =)
Yar, I should be sleeping right now? Can't sleep cause I realised there's stuff not done yet. =S I have a feeling I'm going to sleep during the course tomorrow? I already feel like sleeping now...
Sunday, 29 October 2006
Saturday, 28 October 2006
I went to school.
Haha, no la, it wasn't that bad. Cause Chee Sheng told me I didn't have to bring full u last night.
Campcraft competition this Saturday. One week to train? =/ Try pitching a tent and flagstaff in under 11minutes.
Everything's clashing together?
And campcraft training is this Monday, which is also the date for Cinema 4d and Maths remedial.
And I might have to miss all three Np trainings cause they are all on Fridays just like C4d?
Can forget about 2nd Class badge this nrc then...
Campcraft training was really fun though. Probably cause you don't have to stand still like when doing drills? It's like the complete opposite. No moving in squad, but must do something in campcraft. Eye-power.
Planned to go eat lunch with Hao Xiang. But then we met the girls along the way and went to eat with them instead.
On the way we saw two ladies quarrelling? One was going:"You Prostitute!" Then the other:"How dare you call me a prostitute! I'm going to slap you!". We just watched without doing anything. =S
Hao Xiang is a Goong Freak!!! EEE He even has Goong as his wallpaper on his mobile phone? Complete with Goong soundtrack and Goong pictures?!?! Eeeyer. But I sent the images to my phone cause I can
Sat around at the food court talking for a loong time.
Reached home at around 3.30.
Dinner with Clarissa and Sister. Planned to go Popular to buy a cd. But J8's Popular has no cd rama? Grrr. GRRR.
Worship was just an electric guitar and backup singers. It's a nice change from the usual band setup?
Message was on Salvation in three tenses? Super long though. But it does drive the point home that Salvation is past, present and future. Haha, bet u guys don't know what I'm talking about.
No cell because of A lvls. Everyone was asking if the person I was talking on the phone with was my girlfriend? Eee Alvin's not my girlfriend lar...lol.
Sister's cell ended at 11? haha, this time Bishan park was super forbidding. Full of weird sounds. Like frogs croaking, and the sudden rush of water? And we walked the long way. Haha...drank coffee on the way to the bus stop. Took the last bus home? I didn't know the last bus was 11.38...why so early??
O yes, Chuan hui sounds like Kenny.
Friday, 27 October 2006
Two meanings. =) But no one's online at 7.50am...
Super tired though. Dragged myself out of bed. Alarm didn't wake me up. But thankfully my father did.
2cups of coffee later, and I'm no longer that tired. Worried though, I think I forgot how to pitch a tent already? And all the knots and hitches...was it a bowline on the outer sheet or a manharness?
Thursday, 26 October 2006
Like, I'm underweight!! AAA I've never been underweight ever...must...go..eat...more...
I got 100% attendance in Npcc this year? 0.O
17 CIP hours. Yea, thanks to Glory centre marshalling duty where we did 6 hours.
Rushed to school for the rehearsal thing. Was up the whole night doing the movie with Alvin. Therefore I woke up late. =/ The presentation itself was ok? Haha, too fast for me to register being nervous on stage or something. But the picture of me looks weird. =
Showed the movie thing to our class. Aiming to touch up and upload to youtube by this Saturday?
School ended at 10. Went to cage, like the last time we'll ever play as a class? Quite ok lar, but the caffine from tea soon wore off and I was super tired again. Yi Lun's ball was punctured? =S
Went back to school and waited around for my turn. Felt super tired...but then again, lethargy was not the main reason...
Hees, looks like I only have to go for campcraft training at 9am tomorrow instead of dry shoot at 12.30. =) That means only track pants and pe shirt instead of full uniform.
I could come up with some wonderful rebuttal to fight back against Glynis's friend. That's easy, but I did made a pact and like I said, I will not fight back. =) Nice job on that Cyber bullying part though, although I don't see how Miss Chew was involved, nor do I see the need to insult teachers.
The strongest man walks away.
Wednesday, 25 October 2006
Lessons were just sitting around talking with classmates? Fire drill was...kinda late. Cause it's already the second last day of school so not much point unless a fire happens tomorrow? Because next year there'll be new sec1s which won't know anything about fire drills, and we'll all be in different classes?
Dawn and Charmaine told me to go to the hall cause I topped the level for English? But then no counsellor came to our class and told me to go? I went to the hall to double check anyways. Wayne said it was a Zeng Minghui from 2 Humility. There's a Zeng Minghui from 2Humility? 0.O
Blarhs, received an sms asking me to go to school tomorrow at 7. But didn't Keane tie with me? =S
Yar, I skipped npcc today. Completely forgot about the last graduation section. Which means I'm working now as I'm blogging. (See? I can multitask =P)
Blehs, I don't think I can complete everything in time.
School Mass had this song. Everyone didn't seem enthusiastic though, maybe it's cause the mass was early in the morning. There were lots of akward pauses with the song leaders discussing what to do. And they didn't do the part after the bridge with the drum kick.
Yar, I'm pessimistic.
Monday, 23 October 2006
And then Wen Jie says he's determined to get an Xbox 360?
Blarh, I'll be the only one left with an Xbox...
Went to compass today to find an adapter for my headphone cause
Headphone adapter cost $5.20...didn't buy cause it'd mean saving up for the rest of the week. =( Means I'll be stuck with pocketpc songs until I can save up enough to buy the adapter
Finally almost done with work. Just a few more touch ups...
Added flickr to my blog. Yea, finally tried flickr. Quite easy to use...but I still think google's better.
Bleh, Pre NRC training this wednesday. Jun Xian says he's not going cause of some 3d animation thing? I forgot to check if he's talking about the Cinema4d one. Gasp, calender shows 25th October as C4d course too? So it's either npcc or C4d...
Gonna try to take a nap...
Sunday, 22 October 2006
Movie was interesting cause it captures life perfectly. No one is always right, no one is always wrong. The main character, Light, started off like Robin hood or spiderman, hunted by the law and all. But in the end, Light gets sucked into killing police officers and Fbi agents, and becomes "bad". And the way he does kills is...interesting. The author must have spent a long time figuring out the storyboard.
Go download it if you hate firefox that badly.
My opinion? Firefox is still much better, the only good thing about ie is that it has tabs and supports code better, what about themes and extensions? I'd rather have the ability to change anything I want without fear of lawsuits...
Saturday, 21 October 2006
or discipline me in your wrath.
Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am faint;
O LORD, heal me, for my bones are in agony.
My soul is in anguish.
How long, O LORD, how long?
Turn, O LORD, and deliver me;
save me because of your unfailing love.
No one remembers you when he is dead.
Who praises you from the grave?
I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.
My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of all my foes.
Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the LORD has heard my weeping.
The LORD has heard my cry for mercy;
the LORD accepts my prayer.
All my enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;
they will turn back in sudden disgrace.
Psalms is a great book to read when ur feeling down.
Thursday, 19 October 2006
Why is it that I force myself to listen to others? Grrr, I can barely control anger anymore. Maybe it's cause I'm tired, grumpy? Sleepy? Maybe it's cause I usually multitask when using the computer, so I can have firefox, work, music, and msn open at any given time?
I don't really know why I bother to go listen to what others have to say, why do I bother to try and solve someone else's problem, when I can't even solve my own.
If it's habitual, it's a bad habit.
Compromise. That is really the only word that fits everyone's problems.
- It's because we don't compromise that we didn't invite someone to go watch a movie tomorrow. We can't accept his faults, yet we dont want to tell him to change? His attitude problem, or ours?
- Because Keane and Kenny can't compromise, can't accept each others faults, that they fight, and in the end, the friendship is gone.
- It's because we don't compromise and accept the class shirt design whether it's ugly, or lousy, that we fought so much over the design and ended with just making everyone angry.
I was in an ok mood? Until Keane and Kenny came along. Thanks for ruining my day guys! Thanks a lot! Now on top of working/projects I have to cope with feeling sad and depressed all over again.
I shouldn't let this affect me...but I am.
Wednesday, 18 October 2006
5cans of coffee still won't help, maybe I should try black roast something with more caffine. No, I'm not addicted anymore, just trying to stay awake.
Went to Temasek poly yesterday, celebrated birthday after that, couldn't enter arcade, took bus to hougang, went for a haircut, took 136 home. - Best summary ever.
Today was worse, woke up late, rushed to school, almost slept during Chinese cause the video was super boring. Ehs, my class position was 18? But I kinda forgot if I improved or deproved, I think I was 17th last semester? =S
Npcc was torture, at first. Only 4 of us for sec2. =/ Practiced slow marching, then we got scolded. I think I'm physically unfit now, almost felt like fainting during the training, probably cause I haven't exercised in a long time, unless u count soccer.
Campcraft training was quite ok though, not that many scoldings, and we learned how to make a flagstaff and the weird principles of design in a tent. Like, this weird thing about a circle and a line is all i can remember.
Went home, turned on the computer, signed in msn, smsed Ryan to ask him to re-email the thing. Then I realised he was online. Moral of the story:Always check if your friend is online before smsing.
Rushing through work now, doing and editing article with Keane, and making a movie with Alvin.
Blarh, I think I need a break.
But instead of coding another 50+lines of code just to make it work, and instead of leaving internet explorer users with nothing except blog posts(which I'm very tempted to do), I just removed the css parts. Maybe I'll code it again, or just wait for ie7.
Tuesday, 17 October 2006
So I'm officially one year closer to dying.
But hey, I've learned a lot of stuff since last year right? Like how to play the guitar, new drills, more geeky stuff, my perspective on things have changed. Last year I'd probably be running around shouting and playing. This year I don't run as much. =)
Eeks, I feel like a different person!! AAAA!!
But weird enough, whenever I see a video of a band performing, I'd look to see what chords the guitarist is using, pick or no pick...whenever I read a Straits Times article, I'd look at the byline..whenever I see National Day parades, I'd look at what commands they give...
One year is more than enough for someone to change? I feel weird.
Monday, 16 October 2006
Lots of stuff I wanna add, in the future probably, don't really know why I focused on this skin when I was taking breaks from work. Experimented with a lot of new stuff, like css collaspe and expand menus, and animated gifs.
All graphics created in Gimp, u'd still be able to view my blog without images though. Feel free to rip any images from my blog. I'm not that fussed about intellectual property anyways
Haha, interesting cause if what the following sentence says is true then the previous sentence would be false which means the first sentence wouldn't be true that the following sentence is false and the sentence would be true if not false meaning the previous sentence would be false and that the previous sentence would be true.
Ok, the explanation was just to make you even more confused. =P It really is a liars paradox, in maths or something, an ever continuing sentence that really does nothing because it can have no real answer. Link.
O btw, I failed maths, this is more of philosophy than maths anyways. =P
Sunday, 15 October 2006
Fellowship meeting after that. Pizza was nice. Esp cause there were sweet pineapples on top. But we discussed alot on upcoming events. Gah, can't help at breakfast corner unless I wake up at 6am on Sunday, can't go for most of the events cause of Cinema 4d course. And there's still regular npcc trainings every friday?
Greatest bit of news: Guitar practise might be changed to Saturdays at 4. Meaning we can practise for around 3hours without any fear of npcc. =)
Worst bit of news: Blarh...nvm.
Took 136 home again after that. Saw Keane at Serangoon? Weird, 136 seems to be connected to almost every aspect of my life, since it passes by Church, old home, school, i get lots of weird stares when I'm going home on a friday though, cause I seem to be the only teenager out so late, in school uniform.
Saturday, 14 October 2006
Sitting here alone thinking it through
Trying to convince myself that I'm not losing you
Or can't you just forget the things I said
I was angry at that time but now I've cleared my head
It was so strong , where did it all go wrong
So tell me why , I'm swimming against the tide
And I'm praying for a lifeline cause I'm losing you
So tell me why you took care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight, I can't stand
Wont stand, losing you
You don't have to say a word its in your eyes
What can I do to convince you we need more time
And I know I may have made a few mistakes
But losing you is just too much for me to take
It was so strong , where did it all go wrong
So tell me why , I'm swimming against the tide
And I'm praying for a lifeline cause I'm losing you
So tell me why you took care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight, I can't stand
Wont stand, losing you
So tell me what to say
Because I need a chance to change
And I wont let you walk away
So tell me why , I'm swimming against the tide
And I'm praying for a lifeline cause I'm losing you
So tell me why u took care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight, I can't stand
Wont stand, losing you
Wont stand losing you
Wont stand losing you
Blehs, I don't think I ever typed that fast in my life. Cell ended at around 10.40? Re-wrote a final draft of the article on the bus home, ran all the way back, turned on computer, checked through article, signed in msn, spammed Charmaine =P, told a whole bunch of people starting conversations with me brb, opened microsoft word, started typing like crazy. And I still missed the deadline by around 12minutes? Blehs, at least better than Charmaine.
2. Work on project
Halfway. Added quite a bit of pictures, just need to touch up/crop some pictures and add fade in fade out parts and edit it all nicely to fit in with the music. Did I say halfway? Blarh, more like 1 quarter.
3. Paint mask for Art
Haven't even thought of a design.
4. Help sister resize her photos for her D&T project.
Bleh, I don't even know why I agreed...
5. Learn Cinema 4d
Lenson asked me to go learn how to model clothes? I'm still stuck at moving and resizing objects.
Finished it actually. I think the navbar is weird so, next time.
Wednesday, 11 October 2006
Interesting, introduced to a whole bunch of people at the meeting? Although I think I forgot some of their names. =/ Ah wells, have to write an article on media club talks? Must find people to interview. Blarh, I signed up for the 24hours newspaper competition? All sec3s except me!!! And I forgot to ask Miss Chew about the Cinema 4d. =
Ended at 9...didn't want to go home cause I'd fall asleep and crash before I could do anything, so I chased Sandy around asking her to pei me for 3 hours. Blarh, she never lar, went home and sleep. Hmph. Long story short, brought 500ml iced lemon tea and went to Chee Hock's house.
Erhs, Chee hock's house arh? Haha, he was super freaked out by a ghost video I found.
Lazy to embed, but nvm. It's a nice show really. Don't watch if your afraid easily though. Go scare yourself.
Left his house around 12.15 to go meet the rest. Watched Stay Alive with Chee Hock, Alvin, Woei Jiun, Kun Zi, Chuan Hui, Daniel, Chee Sheng, and Nigel.
Personally, I found the movie really really funny. Cause there was this guy next to me who was super scared lar. Then he was shivering during all the "scary" parts, ok yar, nvm. The movie wasn't all scary in my opinion, just full of those BOO! scenes that shock you for....2seconds? Now to go watch the unrated version.
"in the unrated, we actually see his jaws ripped apart, and a wave of blood hit the windshield"
The actual game showcased in the movie looks interesting, looks like house of the dead. =)
Woei Jiun was super scared because her seat was vibrating? Haha. She's Real!!
Went to play arcade with them after the movie. I was wearing school uniform so Chee Sheng lent me his shirt. =S But still, 6player Daytona Ultimate is fun nonetheless. Almost got first if not for Daniel boosting for the last part lar. haha, interestingly, I used to play Daytona USA on my com. Still have the Cd somewhere...Chuan Hui was dam pro in racing la, she won like, all of us? Woa...I bet she plays everyday, haha.
Walked home in the rain after that. It's much better to forget about things for awhile. But still, everything comes crashing back down in the end...
I'm sounding emotional. =S
Tuesday, 10 October 2006
Monday, 9 October 2006
It's almost worth it going through exams just to experience the feeling of exams ending. =)
Today was Art, I barely had time to complete things? I was designing this super detailed drawing of the chili, and I forgot I had to paint it. And it took super long to paint because the chili was small and I had to use a small tip to slowly color. Blarh, rushed through the entire 2and a half hours. And I finished with two fairly decent designs and un-colored preparatory work. =/
Heh, stayed in class to talk about chalet. AAAA it's on 6-8 nov, and we coincidentally have Cinema 4d on the 6th and 7th. EEKS.
Ehs, studying for Home Econs is boring. Like studying for Geography is much better cause you have nice landscape images in the textbook. Or English cause you have nice stories or passages to read. But home econs makes you hungry, especially if you didn't eat. Then you are forced to look at the tempting pictures of food and you get so hungry you stop studying and find something to eat instead. They should ban pictures from Home Economics textbooks unless it's something disgusting like internal intestines....
Chris Martin had to lip synch this song backwards. Interesting right?
Haha, only 2 so far. Cause these two are free. =) Maybe I'll pay $49.90 for a html 4.0 test? Best part is that the certs are valid for 3years, so I can include them in a resume or something. =D
Almost failed the English Vocabulary though. GAH the questions for that test are super hard. Blehs, go see for yourself.
Sunday, 8 October 2006
Bleh, went home, lazed around installing programs onto the new hardrive.
Then went out again to celebrate Mid Autum Festival? But due to the haze we went to Vivo City instead. Haha, the place is huge, just 2 storeys, but very huge, explored only like half? Went home at around 9.30....
Ehs, was trying to do art, but then after looking for pictures of chilli, and seeing all the mouth watering images, I decided to find a snack to eat instead. Yar, I'm a major procastinator. XD
Very helpful for those doing chili:
Saturday, 7 October 2006
Blarh, went for guitar, met John on the way there. Haha, the whole bus was filled with SA people lar. =/
Guitar practice was fun again, although it's likely to be the last one I can go to cause of NP trainings....but I learned how to pick and strum consecutively. Sis came late due to N levels.
Met Bryan at j8, and the three of us walked back to Church. Gah, it wasn't that bad on the way back to Church lar. Heh, maybe we should have taken a bus or something. Met Yurong on the way back too.
Erhs, went t0 celebrate Mid Autum Festival with cell after that. I seriously had no idea today was mid-autum festival until Hudson told me on the phone. Haha, so fun!! Played with sparklers and candles. Then me and Coleman decided to start a fire from candles and paper and sparklers and leaves and grass. Haha, Guan you was throwing stuff in too cause he no longer cares about the environment.
Super hazy on the way back, ah wells, I think I'm going to have a sore throat from all this haze. =S
"Persons with existing heart or respiratory ailments should reduce physical exertion and outdoor activity.The general population should reduce vigorous outdoor activity."
Yea, great excuse not to exercise and stay at home. But wait, I don't exercise anyways. =/
But then again, Malaysia's worse off right?