What do you do if your belief in something means your belief in everything about that something, and you don't want to believe everything about that something anymore. What do you do if your belief doesn't seem to be as justified as it was, and you don't seem to have any reason for your faith anymore. What do you do if you've fallen so many times that you no longer feel like getting back up. What would be the point when all your efforts seem fruitless, your intentions seem misplaced, your passions seem hopeless. What would you say to a person who feels this way. If there were ever a lower point in my life, I don't remember it. And I don't wish to think about anything anymore.